^BUMP^

It has been a tough week. I had my understanding tests, rugby trainings and so much more. Work has been all right so far. Ok, maybe I should be working only on Saturdays instead of taking on the whole weekends. Then again, I won’t be earning much if I decide to work on Saturdays.

I’ve been skipping rugby trainings lately. I feel that I cannot commit to so many things at one time. I am 23 years old and at this point of my life, I should be deciding which path I should be heading on. I have spent 10 years of my life dedicated to rugby. It is definitely my passion. Why? Passion is when you sprained your ankles a gazillion times and you strap them up, get back on your feet and start playing again. It is when you get cuts and bruises on every part of your body, yet you laugh and keep on playing. It is when the skin on your shoulders got torn off and yet you ask for more. It is when you had your finger dislocated and had it popped back in, just keep on playing. It is when you break your left wrist, had metal supports implanted and removed, and yet you continue want to play. After 10 years, I feel that I have had my fun. Besides, I should concentrate on my running nowadays. I miss running at night.

Understanding tests are getting tougher as we progressed. I am now left with 3 weeks before I ‘unofficially’ end my semester. I realized that National Service has helped me quite a lot. I am now more patient and dedicated towards my studies. Syukur Alhamdulilah, I feel that I’m able to get better at adapting to new problems that may arise.

She has started her attachment on Monday and officially completed her first week yesterday! It was definitely tough to talk to her through out the week. She gets very moody after work and I tend to back off whenever she’s like that. I do hope God will give me the strength to face up these challenges. I know I can do it! Haha! Very gung ho! Anyway dear, you still have around 6 more weeks to go. I wish you all the best and Insya’Allah, everything will be smooth sailing.

We went out yesterday but everything started to fall apart. She was very late due to family problems and I got very pissed off. Emotions flew and I guess, everything isn’t what they are supposed to be. We had dinner, yes, was a nice moment. Then she said something of the blue which sparked off a certain sensitive side of me. I got irritated and we both were very much silent after that.

To my dearest love, I may not be the perfect person for you but I am always trying to be the best one for you. I do hope you can see how sincere I am towards our relationship. At times, I fail to immediately see how much you care and how understanding you are towards me. But I will definitely realize it, after a few moments. My love towards you will never change, despite any problems that will arise. Never, dear. I just hope you are there, with me, trying to overcome those obstacles. And dear, we shouldn’t let our feelings get the better of us. I am sorry for getting upset. I am sorry for not talking much yesterday, I was just simply angry. The remedy is really simple. It is just your smile. Or maybe, a treat from you. Haha!

I cherish the time we spent all these while. Work has been all right and it is all because of you. I have plans in the future, and I hope God has set my path in conjunction with my plans. That which does not kill you, only serves to make you stronger. Insya'Allah. I do hope whatever happens, only serves to strengthen our ties. I love u.