pump..pump..pump..pump until u all die!!

booked out earlier den usual today. instead of booking out on saturday, they changed the whole thing to friday! this is due to those idiots who are gonna collect their A levels results. hahaha! god knows wat kinda of shitty results are they gonna get. yeah..i'm evil! *grins*

slack day this week. had my first CO muster parade. my first damn parade. starched my boots and polished my boots. was looking my smartest dat day. den i look at the mirror n asked myself, why the hell am i here. den i think abt the flag raisings n lowerings, the bugle dat they play, how my family is doing, my frens are coping, the 'garang' looks of my platoon mates and my rifle. yeah..my rifle. y the hell was i given a rifle. den it dawned to me dat its reali not abt serving 2 years, bcoming fit and being the best soldier. its a simple reason dat ppl tend to overlook and deny. but once u bcome a soldier den u'll realised dat ur here, juz to protect the ones u love. n dats all the reason i need.

during the parade, the CO mentioned my company and told us dat we are now at the halfway mark of our journey while the rest of the companies will b passing out during the next 2 weeks. when ur standing still n hearing all these things, u can't help to shed tears. i can still remember the 1st time i enlisted. bald, wearing a brown canterbury polo t, jeans n adidas brown shoes. wif a red oakley bag on my back. so blur, sad n yet eager to serve my 2 years.

n look where i am now. standing here, reaching 4 months into training n watching a batch of my fellow recruits passing out while i still have another 3 more months to go. no longer can wear the polo t n jeans. booking out wif a fieldpack instead of other bags. getting fitter. things have changed alot.

had my first recruits nite also. funny skits by bravo coy, now known as bronco. they even have a professional dancer! hahaha! man..sometimes u guys juz crack me up. dat nite, i spent time looking at stars. hahaha! yeah..its been along time since i look at the nite sky. very very long time. its kinda like those still moments, where u juz look up n ur lost in ur own world. there's alot of things ppl tend to forget. like when was the last time u ate wif ur parents? u look at the clouds? the stars? actuali play in the rain again? hold ur partner's hand n juz whisper sweet nothings? hahaha...

am looking forward to block leave. probably wanna sit at the beach or mayb camp out! still wanting for anyone to follow. i wanna wake up smelling fresh air and running ard the beach. oh yah..gave up liao on chasing anyone. i think i'm to spend my whole life single n looking after my parents. time for me to get up n juz move on. no good to stay fixed on old love. mas, forget the deal we made. its better dat way..k? haha! have fun n keep on smiling miss!

am missing so many frens. should go out wif miss siti azura n gang. hahaha! she's gonna flip when she sees her real name. great ex classmate of mine. haha! should catch up arr sis! mayb during my block leave can plan up wif nahar. my macpherson frens. where are u guys?! n my ever so busy dover guys. kinda long entry but hey, gotta jot down my thoughts rite? one whole week's worth of entry. hahaha!

better. fitter. higher.