pushing..

first of all..i muz say dat i am feeling very tired. God, thank u for the strength u've given me to overcome the week. i am reali thankful!

hectic week. had lotsa things going at one short. weights n circuits. ET walks n jogs. Route march. things are starting to heat up. the route march was exceptionally tough. though it was only 3km, it was also the most tiring. i can still remember the siren going off...telling us to beware of heat alert. yes..HEAT ALERT! weather was damn hot. i washed my shirt n without wringing the water off, i juz let it hang. 2 hours later, the shirt was totally dry. imagine dat, 2 hours to totally dehydrate a medium.

the route march was also an eye opener for me. it made me realise dat there are other ppl who need my help. my platoon holds the biggest of them all. morbidly obese. the biggest of them all. there are some of them who can't even walk 1km. its heart breaking to see ur platoon mates struggling on. there's something abt me. i dun like see ppl in pain. for some goddamn reason, i turned around. tugged n pulled 2 of my platoon mates till we reach the halfway point. along the way, i can see their eyes beginning to redden and the anguish facial expression. i almost cried wif them. y? its juz sad. to see them carrying the pain n yet pushing on, not trying to give up n ur juz fitter den them n walking ahead of them. its been 3 months n being in the same platoon, doesn't mean having to work together but to suffer together. as they say, never leave ANYONE behind.

when we reached the halfway point, they thanked me for helping them. continuing back the rest of the journey, we kept on pulling n pushing one another on. my bag tore due to too much pulling and tugging. i had bleeding blisters on both of my feet. its difficult to carry urself wif an xtra load of 15kg n den tugging 2 other ppl who weight more den 120kg each. but somehow i did it n i'm glad. i realised my limits n have pushed it even higher. n so do my buddies. on dat very day, i salute my bigger comrades for not giving up. u guys earned my respect big time. nothing else can replace the determination u guys have. i may b smaller n fitter but hey, its all in the heart. tears shed n dried, bros till we die. respect shown n given. keep up the good work eagle 1.

dunno wats going on in my life now. living each day as it is. love life? dunno. can't seem to grasp it. i'm somewhere lost in my old love. i miss her n i do want her back. but it takes two hands to clap..yes no? i dunno..i juz wanna go get away. dun wanna contact her n juz remain in solitude. i am fool when it comes to love. hahaha. yeah..i'm a reali shy guy who's a sucker when it comes to love. 2 more weeks b4 block leave. wanna hang out at east coast for awhile. anyone wanna join?

anyway, for mas..here's a the chorus of a song:

You should let me love you
Let me be the one to give you everything you want and need
Baby good love and protection
Make me your selection
Show you the way love's supposed to be
Baby you should let me love you, love you, love you

would any gals say yes when a guy say the same to them? go figure...