to endure and excel

to endure and excel. the motto for fitness specialists and physical training instructors. i find the motto damn interesting. its reali all abt progressing. if u can endure the time, pain and torture then u've juz excelled in pushing ur limits higher. n army life's like dat. u juz gotta learn how to endure in order to excel. n i'm trying my best learning how to endure the pain. as odd as it may sound, sometimes i smile when i'm in pain. when i have to endure in push up position, in buddha clap position, leg raising position n so on.

dunno how many ppl do reali read my blog. but i think this is probably the only place where i can pour out my thoughts and feeling to my heart's content! life in the army is tough n boring. its monotonous. ur body aches all day. but surprisingly, i manage to breeze thru each day as it is. i thank God for giving me the strength and determination to carry on.

next week is chinese new year. gonna have a whole week off. feeling rather scared cos i might put on weight. have to plan out wat i gotta do next week. i probably go run 3km ard the stadium and go to the gym. hope can lose another 20kg more. cos i already lost 10kg! wanna see a new zul at the end of bmt. a slick, cool and smart zul.

v-day's ard the corner. i dun reali celebrate it cos its against my religion to believe in such things. den again, to those who DO celebrate it...do cherish the ones u love. cos u never know when they've got to go. u'll never know the true value of someone till dat someone disappears from ur life.

my life's a bore. i look forward to book out days cos its the only time where i have my sanity checked. there ain't no gals in army n the rest of the other guys are botak. haha! so its nice change of sight once a week! oh yah...had my guard duty last week. terrible time.

tekong's a scary place to b at nite. trust me. reali scary. lotsa things come out at nite. seen stupid stuff which i ain't gonna mention. but somehow it has boosted my courage. had to walk for a couple of hours ard the whole island. den had a few hours of rest n den back to prowling again. did the whole thing for 4 times over n over again. had alot of blisters and trust me, i was reali thinking of juz reporting sick the very next day. thank God for giving me the strength and determination to carry on. its been 2 months n i've yet to report sick. i am thankful to God for giving me a healthy state of mind and body. thanks mas for replying to my sms when i was bored dat day. u've been a very nice lady. thank u soo much! muackz!

learnt how to appreciate time given to me these days. hey mas, i've changed. i've learnt lotsa things. n i'm thankful. wif each passing day, i've learnt to believe in God and myself. i still miss u though. hopefully ur smiling always.

livin' each day as if it's the last. enduring so i can excel. lovin like never b4.