ello there..

"And I'm missing you,
And nobody knows it but me"

erm..in case u dunno, that's a line from the song "Nobody Knows" by tony rich project. was reading masturah's blog a couple of minutes ago. she wrote something rather long which is totally unlike her. plus its in full english. hahahaha! smile mas!

early today i made fun of mas. i think she's rather pissed off wif me. so i'm sorry mas n there's no better way to apologise to u..den on my blog cos ur ignoring me. haha! abt ur entry..i felt bad when i read abt it. erm..i dunno if i bhaved like a goddamn bastard when i was wif u, but if i reali did..den here's my utmost sincere apology. thru out the time i've spent wif u, i've tried my best to b as near as 'mr perfect'. i was sure that i never expect anything better from u. n yes, i was serious abt u thru out the whole time. i know u have ur weaknesses and i have never ever tried to exploit any of them. i was sad..devastated when things didn't go as planned. shit happens..n u were gone. no reasons given..hatred kicked in..state of denial and so on. so many questions went unanswered.

look where i am rite now. keeping in contact wif u. y? cos u taught me love. haha! funny seh! yeah..but its true. u showed me that i could forgive u. n i did. yeah..back then..we were all young n naive but i was looking forward all the time. it felt good to b able to talk to again. but everything seems rather quirky now. the thing is..i reali am sorry for wat happened in the past. somehow..i feel i rather bad when i read ur entry. aiyoh..bad as in reaaaaali bad. i reali didn't want to things to go wrong but its juz that if only u could talk. n juz make good decisions den things would be better. cos i reali like u. n i reali am sooo sorry abt the things that happened. ignore me..hate me..screw me, but juz get it into ur head k? shit happens..u kept keeping things to urself n den doing stupid things! i was there for u 2 yrs ago n i still am 2 years later now..so open up a lil bit n u'll feel better. u CAN b more confident n radiant. impossible is nothing and nothing is impossible. time heals everything. n probably time is the cure for ur wounds. so do smile everyday. yeah..the song by tony rich project suits u rather well now...enjoy!!