back to civilisation

the worse week of my BMT phase. totally worse.

booked in on sunday. den route march on tuesday. 12km route march. surprise, surprise. the person leading us is none other den, our dear ol' CSM. the crazy guy took us on a 12km route march which almost lead to the failure of my legs. we were practically running during the first 2km! imagine running wif an additional load of 16kg on ur body. it gets worse when ur heart is meant for an 80kg body but instead its in a 100kg body. goddamn it. totally mad. i got blisters during the first 2km.

the blisters tore open once we completed the route march. everyone was sooo tired. i was over heating. dunno y but my body heats up too fast. we had to change for lunch straight away!

wed was field camp. the ultimatum. set up concertina wire n iron picket. its crazy lah. helmets n SBO have to be on almost every single time. kept feeling giddy n groggy. cos of the damn helmet. had the chance to shoot blanks. cool stuff. doing section movement n stuff. aggression to the core. almost fainted a couple of times but thank god, i managed to hold on.

once field camp was over on friday, we rushed back to the coy line. its freaking amazing how nice to see buildings again instead of trees. dun get me wrong. i love nature. but nature n military apparels dun reali match. once we cleaned up, i took my temperature. den i realised thru out my field camp, i was having high fever. the temperature i took was 40.3 degrees. amazing. i can be so stupid at times.

hey sis, sorry for not replying to ur sms on time. was out field arr. dun get all teary. pls dun. cos the rite one will come soon. u made the rite decision n dun regret it. juz get busy and u'll soon realise dat ur gonna b feeling better. time heals everything. its true. relax and take things in ur stride ya!!

dunno lah. me n mas. i'm on the verge of juz going isolation. giving up everything lah. i think i'll die a lonely man. she's so stubborn. haha. learnt how to b stubborn from her too.

long weekend. take the chance to sleep n rest. body's a bit heaty now due to the fever. feeling abit high sum times. if i dun wake up tmrw, tell mas i love her. hahaha! n to EAGLE 1, 4 more weeks to POP!!!!!!

fuck it. 4 weeks. lets go. break me now.