booking in today. feeling lethargic.
went out to beach road yesterday. wif a platoon mate of course. we went to get a couple of things for the upcoming field camp. bought zip locks, prickly heat powder, torch n many other stupid things. hahaha. had fun talking cock wif him.
dropped by my ol' working place down at bugis. miss my 'mothers' over there. yeah, wat they say is true. i once said dat i can't wait to enter army cos working is tiring. den they said once i enter army, i will miss working. n its true. went to eat chicken rice n tom yam over there. nice! been a long time since i ate such food. haha! decided to dropped by 7-11 n visit dear ol' masturah. since i'm dropping by, i decided to buy her sumthing to eat. she said dat her hair looks funny. dun think so my dear. it looks juz fine, especially wif dat pretty face of urs.
went to buy a few other things too. my briefs n a stack of paper for my printer. went back n did sum weights training.
going to the jungle for 3 days. hectic week ahead. booking in today.
Sunday, April 24, 2005
Saturday, April 23, 2005
((+)) WATCH YOUR FRONT ((+))
back from 1 week of hell.
did E.T run for the very first time after slacking for a few weeks. my sprinting has gone down. softened. weakened. time for me to buck up. for the very first time in my whole life, i did 15 reps of diamond push ups. DIAMOND. goddamn hardest of em' push ups. i believed i've pushed myself beyond my limits. from juz 10 reps in the past, i've managed to break the damn limit n went up 5 more reps. amazing.
range was hell. the humid weather. the boredom. the noise. the ppl. n most damn thing of all, the sleep deprivation.
we had to wake up at 4.30am n fall at 5.15am. from there we went for breakfast n draw arms immediately. n without a due, we went straight to the range. trust me, it sucks. the day stretched from 4.30am till 2am on the very next day. almost 24 hours down there. hearing gun shots. ppl shouting n chattering at the utmost noisiest level. it was a nite mare.
for 3 straight days. we practiced firing under the influence of sleep deprivation. sum gone fuck while others can still make it. me? i'm still there. though i reali hate sleep deprivation. it makes my mind go haywire. on the 3rd day, we had our test. n i passed. i passed shooting a rifle wif live rounds. n i excel during the day shoot. so dun mess ard wif me during the day.
my sis, azura, having quite a problem. juz like me. headache arr sis. this kinda thing reali sucks. puts us in a spot eh? haiz..problematica. haha! ah well..juz take it slow. follow the flow n time will tell. keep on smilin' ya sis. missin' ya!
5 more weeks to go. i am gonna miss my platoon mates though i find them irritating. i'm gonna cry when i pass out from tekong. trust me, cos i went thru 6 months of hell. n i did not fall out once or took status. even when i had fever, flu, cough, headache n watever shit there is to affect my performance, i sucked it in n went thru the training. n i thank God for giving me the determination to push myself. never knew i could make it thru. without u God, wat am i. n to masturah, thanks for being there. though i probably won't know where its going now btwn the both of us. n i still miss u. ah..team Fajar. bros n sister for life. am loving all of u.
5 weeks. pray for me.
did E.T run for the very first time after slacking for a few weeks. my sprinting has gone down. softened. weakened. time for me to buck up. for the very first time in my whole life, i did 15 reps of diamond push ups. DIAMOND. goddamn hardest of em' push ups. i believed i've pushed myself beyond my limits. from juz 10 reps in the past, i've managed to break the damn limit n went up 5 more reps. amazing.
range was hell. the humid weather. the boredom. the noise. the ppl. n most damn thing of all, the sleep deprivation.
we had to wake up at 4.30am n fall at 5.15am. from there we went for breakfast n draw arms immediately. n without a due, we went straight to the range. trust me, it sucks. the day stretched from 4.30am till 2am on the very next day. almost 24 hours down there. hearing gun shots. ppl shouting n chattering at the utmost noisiest level. it was a nite mare.
for 3 straight days. we practiced firing under the influence of sleep deprivation. sum gone fuck while others can still make it. me? i'm still there. though i reali hate sleep deprivation. it makes my mind go haywire. on the 3rd day, we had our test. n i passed. i passed shooting a rifle wif live rounds. n i excel during the day shoot. so dun mess ard wif me during the day.
my sis, azura, having quite a problem. juz like me. headache arr sis. this kinda thing reali sucks. puts us in a spot eh? haiz..problematica. haha! ah well..juz take it slow. follow the flow n time will tell. keep on smilin' ya sis. missin' ya!
5 more weeks to go. i am gonna miss my platoon mates though i find them irritating. i'm gonna cry when i pass out from tekong. trust me, cos i went thru 6 months of hell. n i did not fall out once or took status. even when i had fever, flu, cough, headache n watever shit there is to affect my performance, i sucked it in n went thru the training. n i thank God for giving me the determination to push myself. never knew i could make it thru. without u God, wat am i. n to masturah, thanks for being there. though i probably won't know where its going now btwn the both of us. n i still miss u. ah..team Fajar. bros n sister for life. am loving all of u.
5 weeks. pray for me.
Sunday, April 17, 2005
= ghost walker =
was so tired! reali reali tired. even though there were no hard activity but still..haiz.
went for my IMT shooting. passed it. got ard 75% hits on target. unofficially, i am a marksman. haha! cleared IMT n now waiting for range. gonna b stressful. hope i can hit most of the target wif my rifle. oh yah, gave my M16 rifle a name. called it Mas II. haha!
finally when outfield last week. spent most of the time playing in the jungle. learning how to camou n the the field craft. pricked my fingers n had my neck scratched by thorns when we were asked to camouflage ourselves in the wild. i look damn fierce wif camou on sia. violent. haha!
had nite combat training too. dats where we learn to work as a team. nothing less, only more. learnt how to ghost walk. haha! its scary shit when u can't see ur enemy. can't wait to finish field camp!! so i can POP!!! tekong's a nitemare!
so many things happening. yet i am able to relate a few. strangely yesterday was the most craziest day. i went out alone. walking wandering. was thinking of masturah. she's having one of the toughest time in her life now. n there r so many things which she shouldn't b doing rite now. it hurts to much to know the one u love, is having a difficult time. and ur juz there, dunno wat to do cos she's not opening up to u. u can't do much cos ur in camp. it juz hurts so much. i reali pray dat she's able to cope wif everything. she's a super woman n i hope she can pull thru. sorry baby cos i can't b there for most of the the time. but i can ALWAYS b on time whenever u need me. am so missin' u.
6 more book outs b4 i POP. i hope masturah can make time for dinner wif me when i POP liao.
from 6 months to 6 weeks. its a huge transformation. n everyone can't wait to POP. field camp? range? all the other shit? bring it on. cos i know i'll always have her by my side.
went for my IMT shooting. passed it. got ard 75% hits on target. unofficially, i am a marksman. haha! cleared IMT n now waiting for range. gonna b stressful. hope i can hit most of the target wif my rifle. oh yah, gave my M16 rifle a name. called it Mas II. haha!
finally when outfield last week. spent most of the time playing in the jungle. learning how to camou n the the field craft. pricked my fingers n had my neck scratched by thorns when we were asked to camouflage ourselves in the wild. i look damn fierce wif camou on sia. violent. haha!
had nite combat training too. dats where we learn to work as a team. nothing less, only more. learnt how to ghost walk. haha! its scary shit when u can't see ur enemy. can't wait to finish field camp!! so i can POP!!! tekong's a nitemare!
so many things happening. yet i am able to relate a few. strangely yesterday was the most craziest day. i went out alone. walking wandering. was thinking of masturah. she's having one of the toughest time in her life now. n there r so many things which she shouldn't b doing rite now. it hurts to much to know the one u love, is having a difficult time. and ur juz there, dunno wat to do cos she's not opening up to u. u can't do much cos ur in camp. it juz hurts so much. i reali pray dat she's able to cope wif everything. she's a super woman n i hope she can pull thru. sorry baby cos i can't b there for most of the the time. but i can ALWAYS b on time whenever u need me. am so missin' u.
6 more book outs b4 i POP. i hope masturah can make time for dinner wif me when i POP liao.
from 6 months to 6 weeks. its a huge transformation. n everyone can't wait to POP. field camp? range? all the other shit? bring it on. cos i know i'll always have her by my side.
Sunday, April 10, 2005
canadian bull target
back from camp again. blardy crazy week of stuff.
had our 8km route march. madness. madness i tell u. everything was ok until we reached the last 2km. dats y i almost fell out. lotsa stuff going thru ur mind when ur tired. as if someone's telling u to juz tap out. but i held on n finished the goddamn distance.
the coolest stuff was IMT. our rifle shooting simulation lesson. cool stuff! shooting at a target of 25m n 100m. BANG!! BANG!! woohoo! hopefully i can go for the marksmanship award!
went out wif zul to beach road yesterday cos i reali needed a name tag for one of my uniforms. haven't been there for some time. they have the coolest shit for outdoor life. bags..bottles..anything for the rugged. den met up wif nahar to watch 'Be Cool'. the movie's ok. abit funny. but i think should've watched 'Spanglish' instead. heard dat my sis, azura, passed her exams. congrats sis! ya..i'll try out the mocha villa soon! enjoy urself thru out the week ya!
she asked me y i never gave up on her. y should i? i'm a simple guy looking for a simple gal. she said she's not pretty. but hey, i'm the one looking rite? n in my eyes, she is gorgeous. she said she's stubborn. well, am i not stubborn too? hahaha! no one's perfect so i can't b her mr perfect. but the least i could b is her mr good. if u reali like someone, u would give ur best juz to make them smile. i dun need a supermodel, a celebrity or a goddamn gorgeous gal by my side. i juz want her.
am going to run more often now. 2 more months to go. i wanna go off from tekong wif a greater size reduction den now. god help me. its time for me to buck up or b fucked up.
100 push ups. 200 crunches. 2.4km. go.
had our 8km route march. madness. madness i tell u. everything was ok until we reached the last 2km. dats y i almost fell out. lotsa stuff going thru ur mind when ur tired. as if someone's telling u to juz tap out. but i held on n finished the goddamn distance.
the coolest stuff was IMT. our rifle shooting simulation lesson. cool stuff! shooting at a target of 25m n 100m. BANG!! BANG!! woohoo! hopefully i can go for the marksmanship award!
went out wif zul to beach road yesterday cos i reali needed a name tag for one of my uniforms. haven't been there for some time. they have the coolest shit for outdoor life. bags..bottles..anything for the rugged. den met up wif nahar to watch 'Be Cool'. the movie's ok. abit funny. but i think should've watched 'Spanglish' instead. heard dat my sis, azura, passed her exams. congrats sis! ya..i'll try out the mocha villa soon! enjoy urself thru out the week ya!
she asked me y i never gave up on her. y should i? i'm a simple guy looking for a simple gal. she said she's not pretty. but hey, i'm the one looking rite? n in my eyes, she is gorgeous. she said she's stubborn. well, am i not stubborn too? hahaha! no one's perfect so i can't b her mr perfect. but the least i could b is her mr good. if u reali like someone, u would give ur best juz to make them smile. i dun need a supermodel, a celebrity or a goddamn gorgeous gal by my side. i juz want her.
am going to run more often now. 2 more months to go. i wanna go off from tekong wif a greater size reduction den now. god help me. its time for me to buck up or b fucked up.
100 push ups. 200 crunches. 2.4km. go.
Saturday, April 02, 2005
my warcry..
i sat here. back from camp. tough week of pain.
had 3km route march on monday. cleverly used clear tape to bind the sole of my feet. this is actuali to prevent the massive blisters from hell to appear. trust me, blisters n flu are the 2 most hated things in BMTC. can't walk wif blisters on ur soles n u can't run wif a blocked nose plus a weak body.
i had 3 BCCT trainings. abit stupid but it brought out the fighter in me. most ppl won't know but i've a lil bit of martial arts training back when i was a kid. god knows wat happened but i seemed to b more comfortable as an unarmed soldier.
den had a crazy PT session by my specialists. 6 in all. i had ALOT of jumping jacks, push ups, bridging, alternate leg thrusts, flutter kicks and buddha claps. damn. lotsa pain. lotsa fun. they've taught me well abt mind games. i am now a reverse psycho freak.
had the creme de la creme training on friday. the 6km route march. took out alot from me. am not used to carrying an xtra 15kg of shit on my body n walked 6km. i find it strange how the more i stop for breaks (which we are FORCED to), the more tiring it gets. mayb lesser breaks n more walking will b better.
its been 3 days since i had did proper 100 push ups per day. but now i'm concentrating on my arms. read a quote in Men's Health which goes like this:
'i have no past. nor do i have any future. i live in the present. therefore, i am now'
which is true. i shouldn't b thinking of how fat i used to b. or how i'm gonna look like tmrw. cos i won't know if i'm gonna wake up tmrw n dat i already know dat wat's past is past. the main thing now is to live for today. look at the present. wat matters is, i finish my reps n sets!
should have asked my sis, azura, out today. but i felt too tired. sis, i promise i'll asked u out soon! i am confused. i am missing masturah. but she's not working today. i've asked her out though. but she didn't reply earlier on. till juz now. i am at the point where, i juz wanna go away from her. cos i reali dunno. abt going after her all over again. its scary. even for a soldier. sure it sounds funny, but it reali is scary. ur going out, all out, for someone whom u reali like. u wanna b wif. but she's remaining low. not telling u how she's feeling. or anything. n i juz wanna F.O from everything n juz b the fucker who's happy for her. but as in the words taken from the movie 'Hitch', u dunno how much it hurts every time u wake up n knowing dat the gal u love is being wif someone who's totally wrong for her. i dunno. u tell me.
have fun. 110 push ups n 200 crunches. go.
had 3km route march on monday. cleverly used clear tape to bind the sole of my feet. this is actuali to prevent the massive blisters from hell to appear. trust me, blisters n flu are the 2 most hated things in BMTC. can't walk wif blisters on ur soles n u can't run wif a blocked nose plus a weak body.
i had 3 BCCT trainings. abit stupid but it brought out the fighter in me. most ppl won't know but i've a lil bit of martial arts training back when i was a kid. god knows wat happened but i seemed to b more comfortable as an unarmed soldier.
den had a crazy PT session by my specialists. 6 in all. i had ALOT of jumping jacks, push ups, bridging, alternate leg thrusts, flutter kicks and buddha claps. damn. lotsa pain. lotsa fun. they've taught me well abt mind games. i am now a reverse psycho freak.
had the creme de la creme training on friday. the 6km route march. took out alot from me. am not used to carrying an xtra 15kg of shit on my body n walked 6km. i find it strange how the more i stop for breaks (which we are FORCED to), the more tiring it gets. mayb lesser breaks n more walking will b better.
its been 3 days since i had did proper 100 push ups per day. but now i'm concentrating on my arms. read a quote in Men's Health which goes like this:
'i have no past. nor do i have any future. i live in the present. therefore, i am now'
which is true. i shouldn't b thinking of how fat i used to b. or how i'm gonna look like tmrw. cos i won't know if i'm gonna wake up tmrw n dat i already know dat wat's past is past. the main thing now is to live for today. look at the present. wat matters is, i finish my reps n sets!
should have asked my sis, azura, out today. but i felt too tired. sis, i promise i'll asked u out soon! i am confused. i am missing masturah. but she's not working today. i've asked her out though. but she didn't reply earlier on. till juz now. i am at the point where, i juz wanna go away from her. cos i reali dunno. abt going after her all over again. its scary. even for a soldier. sure it sounds funny, but it reali is scary. ur going out, all out, for someone whom u reali like. u wanna b wif. but she's remaining low. not telling u how she's feeling. or anything. n i juz wanna F.O from everything n juz b the fucker who's happy for her. but as in the words taken from the movie 'Hitch', u dunno how much it hurts every time u wake up n knowing dat the gal u love is being wif someone who's totally wrong for her. i dunno. u tell me.
have fun. 110 push ups n 200 crunches. go.
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