9 months.

happy chinese new year to my frens!

4 days of public holidays. maaaaan, pigged out!! ate damn alot. this is y i prefer staying in camp. haha! seriously alot. ran for an hour on saturday. did my circuits on sunday. ran on monday. n doing my circuits later on. circuits are no joke k? 100 standard push ups, 100 diamond push ups, 100 wide push ups, 180 squats, 280 flutter kicks, 300 crunches n helluva lot of reps of deltoids. crazy? mad? gila? hahaha..u gotta do wat u gotta do.

i sit back n chatted wif a my BMT buddy, sree manee raaj! we are probably the only 2 buggers in section who are still trying to slim down. n trust me, it shows. the rest of our section mates gained weight n ballooned up massively. maaan, u guys gotta slow down. manee asked me y i'm doing all these workouts. y? cos i wanna b a sum one. n to b sum one u gotta stay alive. i need a healthier body. haha. not for gals. not for sum farked up one nite stands. but for my own good. gals? u can get 'em anywhere. sex? can b paid for n delivered. a healthier body? blood, sweat n tears. i spent 18 yrs of my life gaining weight n i think i better spent the rest of my life losing weight. its a challenge alrite. ain't easy. i swear, its reali not easy. but life changed for the better.

when i was 18, i couldn't even run 1.6km. i still remembered a particular rugby training. the whole team went for a 1.6km run. n i was panting like fark. a fat fark. feel like dying. now? i can run an hour non stop. 30 mins is a breeze. n if God's willing, i'll reach the 2hrs mark soon. ain't easy losing weight. it's even harder to carry it ard.

she's aint talking to me. i guess its fine. mayb she should've done it a looong time ago. mayb i was dumb. haha. but hey, i will survive. 6 months of hell in tekong. this is nothing. anyway, mayb i'm not worth ur love. sorry for everything though.

9 months to go. the exact time it takes for a baby to b fully developed. for me, life has juz started.