sitting here. confused. tired. lost. totally wiped out.
work has taken a toll on me. was all out thru out the whole of last week. did my job. yet, i've to to jobs which belong to others. i dun understand. am angry. upset. n such. bleargh. 7 more months.
i dun understand y i'm having feelings for her. despite so many things that have happened, she's still in my head. dunno y. urgh. i hate this. she's my light yet at times, she's the one who puts my flame out. keeps me up but sumtimes, i fall cos of her. dun get me wrong. i feel as if i'm never good enuff for her. she has everything. me? nothing. no looks, no nothing. n yes, i feel inferior. ok, i have inferior complexity. but if u were in my place, u would feel the same. she's waaay up there n i'm waaay down there. totally confused. blur lah. if i tell her, den she'll freak it out. but if i dun, i'll turn into a freak. if i go away, den i won't know how things are gonna work out. but i stay, i might b disappointed. damn it. i hate the position where i am now.
counting down.
Sunday, March 12, 2006
Sunday, February 26, 2006
hoisted
woah..its been a loooong time.
no mood to update my own personal life. its the same i guess.
army life is getting abit boring as the days go by. my vocation isn't one of the 'happening' ones. damn boring.
starting my diet in a few days. back to pumping iron n running like a dog.
oh, guess wat? i am now the 'Best Soldier' for February. didn't expect that. haha. now i've got a lunch date wif my commander. n i dread it.
am looking for a new pair of shoes. converse. any suggestions? any one?
a shout out to my buddy who has ORD:
CPL Luo Lian Bin
After 28 months, u've finally ORD!! Ah..muz b feeling damn relieved. gonna miss u bro. all the times we talk cocked together, stay in together, watching tv n doing all sorts of crap onto others. haha. easy going bugger. can always click wif anyone. ur stupid remarks n jokes. we are reali gonna miss them. lao jiao ar u! damn old bird. finally. enjoy urself bro. good luck for the future. wait for me. gonna reach the door soon.
no mood to update my own personal life. its the same i guess.
army life is getting abit boring as the days go by. my vocation isn't one of the 'happening' ones. damn boring.
starting my diet in a few days. back to pumping iron n running like a dog.
oh, guess wat? i am now the 'Best Soldier' for February. didn't expect that. haha. now i've got a lunch date wif my commander. n i dread it.
am looking for a new pair of shoes. converse. any suggestions? any one?
a shout out to my buddy who has ORD:
CPL Luo Lian Bin
After 28 months, u've finally ORD!! Ah..muz b feeling damn relieved. gonna miss u bro. all the times we talk cocked together, stay in together, watching tv n doing all sorts of crap onto others. haha. easy going bugger. can always click wif anyone. ur stupid remarks n jokes. we are reali gonna miss them. lao jiao ar u! damn old bird. finally. enjoy urself bro. good luck for the future. wait for me. gonna reach the door soon.
Tuesday, January 31, 2006
9 months.
happy chinese new year to my frens!
4 days of public holidays. maaaaan, pigged out!! ate damn alot. this is y i prefer staying in camp. haha! seriously alot. ran for an hour on saturday. did my circuits on sunday. ran on monday. n doing my circuits later on. circuits are no joke k? 100 standard push ups, 100 diamond push ups, 100 wide push ups, 180 squats, 280 flutter kicks, 300 crunches n helluva lot of reps of deltoids. crazy? mad? gila? hahaha..u gotta do wat u gotta do.
i sit back n chatted wif a my BMT buddy, sree manee raaj! we are probably the only 2 buggers in section who are still trying to slim down. n trust me, it shows. the rest of our section mates gained weight n ballooned up massively. maaan, u guys gotta slow down. manee asked me y i'm doing all these workouts. y? cos i wanna b a sum one. n to b sum one u gotta stay alive. i need a healthier body. haha. not for gals. not for sum farked up one nite stands. but for my own good. gals? u can get 'em anywhere. sex? can b paid for n delivered. a healthier body? blood, sweat n tears. i spent 18 yrs of my life gaining weight n i think i better spent the rest of my life losing weight. its a challenge alrite. ain't easy. i swear, its reali not easy. but life changed for the better.
when i was 18, i couldn't even run 1.6km. i still remembered a particular rugby training. the whole team went for a 1.6km run. n i was panting like fark. a fat fark. feel like dying. now? i can run an hour non stop. 30 mins is a breeze. n if God's willing, i'll reach the 2hrs mark soon. ain't easy losing weight. it's even harder to carry it ard.
she's aint talking to me. i guess its fine. mayb she should've done it a looong time ago. mayb i was dumb. haha. but hey, i will survive. 6 months of hell in tekong. this is nothing. anyway, mayb i'm not worth ur love. sorry for everything though.
9 months to go. the exact time it takes for a baby to b fully developed. for me, life has juz started.
4 days of public holidays. maaaaan, pigged out!! ate damn alot. this is y i prefer staying in camp. haha! seriously alot. ran for an hour on saturday. did my circuits on sunday. ran on monday. n doing my circuits later on. circuits are no joke k? 100 standard push ups, 100 diamond push ups, 100 wide push ups, 180 squats, 280 flutter kicks, 300 crunches n helluva lot of reps of deltoids. crazy? mad? gila? hahaha..u gotta do wat u gotta do.
i sit back n chatted wif a my BMT buddy, sree manee raaj! we are probably the only 2 buggers in section who are still trying to slim down. n trust me, it shows. the rest of our section mates gained weight n ballooned up massively. maaan, u guys gotta slow down. manee asked me y i'm doing all these workouts. y? cos i wanna b a sum one. n to b sum one u gotta stay alive. i need a healthier body. haha. not for gals. not for sum farked up one nite stands. but for my own good. gals? u can get 'em anywhere. sex? can b paid for n delivered. a healthier body? blood, sweat n tears. i spent 18 yrs of my life gaining weight n i think i better spent the rest of my life losing weight. its a challenge alrite. ain't easy. i swear, its reali not easy. but life changed for the better.
when i was 18, i couldn't even run 1.6km. i still remembered a particular rugby training. the whole team went for a 1.6km run. n i was panting like fark. a fat fark. feel like dying. now? i can run an hour non stop. 30 mins is a breeze. n if God's willing, i'll reach the 2hrs mark soon. ain't easy losing weight. it's even harder to carry it ard.
she's aint talking to me. i guess its fine. mayb she should've done it a looong time ago. mayb i was dumb. haha. but hey, i will survive. 6 months of hell in tekong. this is nothing. anyway, mayb i'm not worth ur love. sorry for everything though.
9 months to go. the exact time it takes for a baby to b fully developed. for me, life has juz started.
Tuesday, January 10, 2006
refresh!
welcome to 2006.
new things which took place in my life.
got a new hp. A Sony Ericsson K750i. love da phone. i love its camera. wished i could get the W800i instead. but this will do. am gonna b my own personal director wif the phone. haha! still gotta get a new memory card. the current one ain't enuff!
finally got my protein shake. my first. haha! Dymatize Elite Whey. Choco mint. tastes damn nice. smells even nicer. haha! serious training starts this year. gotta lose more weight b4 i ORD.
went for range too. SAR 21 is even harder to shoot. miss my M16. my wife. haha. 1 good thng abt the army is that we get to play wif all the big guns. police..they only touch the Taurus revolver. scdf? they juz shoot water. haha. maaaan...i wanna go thru range 1 more time.
this year..am looking forward to ORD. gonna plan to backpack to thailand. hopefully it comes true. my dear masturah has signed on wif the police. n she's wearing skirt! haha. u dun get to see in skirt often. haha. i saw her only twice in skirt! miss u mas.
lets hope for the best this year. get the job done.
new things which took place in my life.
got a new hp. A Sony Ericsson K750i. love da phone. i love its camera. wished i could get the W800i instead. but this will do. am gonna b my own personal director wif the phone. haha! still gotta get a new memory card. the current one ain't enuff!
finally got my protein shake. my first. haha! Dymatize Elite Whey. Choco mint. tastes damn nice. smells even nicer. haha! serious training starts this year. gotta lose more weight b4 i ORD.
went for range too. SAR 21 is even harder to shoot. miss my M16. my wife. haha. 1 good thng abt the army is that we get to play wif all the big guns. police..they only touch the Taurus revolver. scdf? they juz shoot water. haha. maaaan...i wanna go thru range 1 more time.
this year..am looking forward to ORD. gonna plan to backpack to thailand. hopefully it comes true. my dear masturah has signed on wif the police. n she's wearing skirt! haha. u dun get to see in skirt often. haha. i saw her only twice in skirt! miss u mas.
lets hope for the best this year. get the job done.
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