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not in camp today. sumthing unexpected happened. n i'm feeling very very lost.

was abt to book in last nite. ard 9.20pm. my dad called n broke the news to me. he said 'zul, kau kat mana? dah sampai camp eh? eh..nenek meninggal. dia baru meninggal tadi!'. those words. unbelievable words. i stopped dead in my tracks. in the middle of the goddamn road. n all i could say was 'ok, zul try amik leave untuk besok!'.

my grandma passed away at 2107hrs. that's 9.07pm. i attended her funeral today n for a moment i feel that i'm lost. i watched her forlorn face while praying for her. she looked so peaceful. n its a wonderful thing to see her in that state. u see, she was bedridden for 7 years. fell down n couldn't move till the day she left us. but that didn't break her. each time i visit her, she would look at me n made sum gestures to acknowledge me. n i can see the sparkle of happiness in her eyes whenever she sees her grandchildren visiting her. she's a fighter i tell u. n to eagle coy ppl, it runs in the blood. now u know y i'm a chiongster.

couldn't help crying over the loss of someone dear to me. to see her finally going to a better place. her funeral opened my eyes to certain questions i've never posed myself to. y this? y that? y her? y me? so many things to ask. n only in time, God will show me the answers. n to my grandma, may u rest in peace. i've always loved u. on this sunday, i dedicate my AHM run to u. love u always.