Sunday, August 07, 2005

.:.:.:*reminiscence*:.:.:.

am feeling damn sick. down wif fever in fact. sore throat, runny nose n the works. hate it big time. haha. ain't gonna work for the time being. risky. too many NSFs are dying. so..better be safe den sorry. sounds like a goddamn condom slogan.

anyway, last week was stupid. we had cohesion day on friday. played bowling in the morning. now, u dun get to see me play bowling often. rarely. rarely, as in once a very very blue moon. come to think of it, i've played bowling only twice in my whole life. haha! yes, it is a boring game. BUT! but it require sum practice b4 u get the hang of it. its not that easy actuali. imagine a rugger like me, who uses raw brawn to steal the ball from opponents in rugby matches, picking up a bowling ball n straddle up b4 finally bowling it towards the pins. not so zul at all. haha. but its a graceful game. the way the bowlers pick up the ball. hold it close to their chest as if its the most precious crystal ball. aligned their bodies to get centre of the lane. eyes, ever so concentrating on the pins. n when they start the 'soft' jog, time seems to froze. n b4 u know it, u can hear the sound of the ball crashing into the pins. ah..like fury unleashed.

been running alot lately. i hate running actuali. to the extreme. but gotta do it for my body's sake. hopefully, am going down bit by bit. still got a whole year for me. stay in the diet n keep on running. its a slow process. at times, frustrating. but heck, for my own good.

surprisingly, i got an sms from miss masturah last thurs. been a long time since i last heard from her. gal, u make me worry. hey, i understand. relax. juz hope that ur doing ok n all. 4yrs ago, i was there for u. n now 4 yrs later, i'm still here for u. am proud by the decisions u've made. n i hope u make good use of the time u have. at times, i am jealous at how ur able to cope wif stuff n all. a super woman. haha. anyway, hope u will take care n i'll drop by to see once in awhile.

went out wif my sec sch frens last sunday. had a blast. though i was quiet most of the time. guess i was sorta down that day. dunno y. i juz feel tired. its nice to see u guys again. miss azura, my sis! hahaha! yes dear, u do look good in pink. the sweetest gal ever. haha. the princess of 4E3. ramok!! ahah! a sgt also! from 3rd Guards. bro..ur looking good sia. u n sakthi are looking damn well. barry, u goddamn civilian. i hope when u enter army next month, they will smack u good! haha! u know, ur a great guy to hang out wif. better train up for hell next month. n my best bro of all, private hilmi. no need to say lah. i know u inside out. n vice versa. hahaha! too well already. oh yah, got extra can passing or not!! wah liao...keep to urself sia!

woke this morning. saw an ad abt national day. yes, national day is ard the corner. the ad was cool. shows a couple of old photos. ppl of yesterday. n den a clip showing ppl of today wif the same pose. cool stuff. reminiscing. n den, it hit me. i asked myself, when i look back 40 yrs down the road, would i b proud of my old self? true, the fact that i've done some stupid stuff and the things i've gone thru. but at the same time, i believe that i was never a reali bad guy at all. my parents brought me up well enuff. n i know my priorities. my rights n wrongs. though at times, i tend to follow my bad side, i still know my limits. n at this point of my life, where i'm trying to b fit n shed a few kilos, i feel that i'm reaching the peak of physical self. to leave my old fat self behind n come out as a leaner guy. it feels good in fact. n yes, i have to admit. that when i look back at my past, i found myself tearing. n sumhow, i know i'm proud of myself. n nothing else matters. ask urself this, are u proud of urself?

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