echo..

today's a rather sombre day for me. its hari raya haji. went to the mosque for prayers today. i alway look forward to going to the mosque every hari raya..regardless whether its adilfitri or aidiladha. the feeling is different. the ambience, the atmosphere and the ppl makes the whole praying session a rather special event. not forgetting the takbir, which is the only thing which instantly makes me reflect on the stupid things i've done thru out my life. today, i was sitting there and thinking abt 5 major things.

the first 3 were the relationships i went thru. been awhile n i think i've learned from my mistakes. the first one was a total disaster lah, wasn't my fault at all. but my 2nd n 3rd one, i should have been a better guy, though i gave my all in my 2nd relationship and i would do it all over again. but hey, picked myself up n doing well now. relationship is a rather complicated thing. one thing i realised abt me now, is dat i dun reali talk to gals. i'm a different person wif guys n a totally different person wif gals. i tend to b a very angelic bugger ard gals. dunno y. SNAG arr..

the fourth mistake almost ended up wif a police report. shall not tell the whole world.

the 5th one is me being myself. i should change. for the better though.

army changed me. i am more disciplined n can co operate wif others more. i realised dat i am a nobody. but when 49 other guys are enduring the same dreadful trainings wif me, i sense that they look up at me as a somebody.