wah liao..

tired. tired. tired. work was hectic. fed lotsa mouths. no tom yam. again!

i think i'm being a jerk. i like to see how ppl react. especially gals. i have this habit of looking at a pretty gal. den doing an innocent n changing my face to 'i-am-so-decent-n-shy-guy' expression. haha! u won't believe how EFFECTIVE that expression is! the gals would suddenly bcome self conscious. they would check their dressing, whether i'm still looking at them, whether some other ppl are looking at them also. haha! funny! sooooo funny! did something to this gal earlier this morning n she was like looking so innocent, acting as if i should b asking her for her contact number or something. NO CHANCE IN HELL! hahahaha! zul..ur a jerk. haha!

took the train on my way back home. standing behind this couple. bloody irritating. the stupid guy was whistling to some chinese tune. n the gal kept hugging the bastard. kissing. smooching. hugging. kissing. smooching. hugging. makes me sick. cupid..get a life!

its my off day tmrw! wanna rest n go catch a movie. the bourne supremacy! heard that its a good show! wanna play game till the wee hours..wanna sleep till late morning. i am tired therefore i am..

hey ya!! 

horny goat weed!

haha! stupid name for a herb! horny goat weed! go that name from a GNC newsletter! yeah..i am a member of GNC! horny goat weed..increases stamina and energy! obviously not for working out! haha!

hey hey! saw azura today!! took the same bus but she didn't noticed me till i sms-ed her! haha! she boarded the bus and went straight to the back without looking ard! how could u sis! haha! funny seh..same bus but didn't have the chance to talk to her! ah well..looking fine sis!

i am tired..been working the morning shift for the past 3 days. i hate morning shifts! can't wake up early! haha! Creative's having a sale this friday! gonna grab myself an mp3 player! haha! tired..juz simply tired today. i tell u..on of these days, my eyes will pop out of their sockets. women are wearing less nowadays. BIG distraction..haha!

on top is a pic of me taken in Johor a few months back. i was forced to cut my hair by my Section Head back then. i miss my locks..i miss my frizzy hairstyle..i look so damn cool wif frizzy hair! haiz..

when i'm reali juz a Thundercat..

haha! funny heading aye? haha! old cartoons bring smiles to my face. had a looooong day yesterday. went to tekong to visit my younger bro. going there in a few months. looks like a bloody chalet. haha. pretty gals visiting their siblings n bfs. nice! haha. went there wif my family. my bro looks tired. seems abit nervous too. hope he has changed.

i dun wanna talk to someone. cos i'm scared of falling for her. hahaha. dun want. anyway..abit tired arr now. was working my ass off juz now.

things i want:

• new specs
• new game
• new shoes
• mp3 player
  

things i need:

• a gf

hahahaha! hahaha!

new records..

was suppose to do this entry yesterday but i guess i had to sleep early. work was hell today. didn't eat breakfast..n lunch. juz ate dinner at 5pm. am tired. am sick of stupid ppl asking for fish soups.

a few records were broken yesterday. firstly, my fave team..Arsenal has gone unbeaten for 43 games. amazing feat it was. bringing down blackburn to clinch the victory. they have broken the record set by nottingham forest, which was unbeaten for 42 games. unbelievable. truly fascinating. i wanna see how far this arsenal revolution is gonna go. arsene wenger's invincibles. next record worth mentioning is hossein rezazadeh a.k.a the iranian hercules. this weightlifter from iran has broken a world record in the weightlifting world. amazing stuff. u should see him lift those weights at the olympics! damn..he's huge! awesome person..an islamic hercules! another world record was broken at the atheletics meet. the first one to be broken at the 2004 olympics' atheletics meet! pole vault! shit..that's pure passion to be able to pole vault urself over that height.

amazing stuff yesterday. was truly taken back. so many things happening in my life. kinda brings out the drive in me again. visiting my bro at tekong tmrw. abit tired n lazy to go. haha! i can wait lah..no need to rush me into tekong. aiyah..i reali wanna keep away from someone. dun wanna chat wif her at the moment cos i know i'm gonna feel that shitty feeling all over again. but cannot control arr!! ah well..till next time..

hhmmm...

on my chair. drinking tea. listening to norah jones. on a cool n wet nite.

am i relaxing or wat!! haha! today's weather has been reaaaaaaaali great! wet..cold..cool..soooo relaxing. singapore dun get much rain! n when it rains..woohoo!! today was a lazy day for me. in fact, my off days are my laziest days. haha! the rubber soles of my adidas shoes are coming off! oh my god! my $135 shoes!! time to get it glued!

was chatting rather long wif someone today. shall not name her. haha. finally got the answers from her. cleared everything up. been waiting almost 2 years for her answers. ah well..watever it is, i still like her. she made me smile today.

haven't been touching my xbox for a couple of days already! time to get a new game! haha! i luv my mean green machine!

surprise!!

am very tired rite now but can't seem to sleep. work was kinda alrite today. no eggs at the stall today due to the recent birdflu epidemic in malaysia. all poultry items were band. funny thing happened today at work. was serving a lady who was in her 40s. seemed kinda familiar n upon further straining my eyes n giving the lady weird looks, i realised that she was my pri sch teacher! mdm fadilah! hahaha! didn't actually say hi to her. was abit dumbfounded to see her. lost for words. den i told my colleague (she's in her 40s too!) that the lady was my former teacher back when i was a kid. i call my colleague..'kakak' even though she's waaay older den me. n den kakak said that she knew my teacher too..n even told me my teacher's name. something wasn't rite so i asked her how come she knew. n she said that my teacher taught her daughter. den she asked me which sch i was from n i said 'Lianhua Pri'. n she laughed..laughed n laughed. i asked her y n she said that her daughter was from the same sch!!!!

oh my god! how weird is that?! in case u didn't know..i took motorbike practicals along side her daughter even b4 i even knew her! scary but funny at the same time! hahaha! hey wani, tak sangka eh kau ni dulu in malay dance! wahahaha! my fellow prefect somemore! wahahah! funny shit!!

that incident reali put a smile on my face. Allah is great..n he has shown me that he is. :)

thinking..

abit down nowadays. still thinking abt alot of things. particularly of my future. wats next..where do i go from here..i'm 20 already..am i ready for the working life..can i take office politics n so on. everything's like rushing in. reminiscing the things i used to do when i was young. young n naive. but i was also free from problems..always having fun. leading the happy go lucky life. as u grow older..u tend to b more responsible n face things head on. gone are the days of adolescence n here comes an overnite maturity...

one of the most complex thing i faced was probably...love. yeah. handling my relationships ain't my forte nor has it been my specialty but i do give my best. n i ended up being hurt all the time. mayb i should b less generous wif my love n stop being the good guy all time. masita, masturah n adila. thanks for ur love n HEADACHES that u gals gave me. haha! still loving one n hating the other two.

went thru alot to get to where i am. sec school was a blast. been in great classes n met wif great individuals. my E3 class was the best. imagine..being in the most notorious class of all! haha! great pals i met n found. n they still are. my bros: nahar, jatt, zan, fik, reza, ardy, team 4E4, the rest of the crew n my classmate for 7 yrs, hilmi. my sis: AZURA! missing u ppl. thanks for the support.

sometimes when i think abt it..whether i can make it in life, i smile. been thru alot. pushed to my limits. ascended to a higher limit n still pushing it higher. amazing how i could do it. this goes out to the ppl i love n hate. thanks cos u ppl keep me going strong. n i think i can make in life. :)

quoting miss hilda quek, my pri sch teacher: "I can because I think I can"

sumthing i did. a picture of my scar. n my watch. looks like an x-ray huh? xcept for the watch. time heals all scars they say..i'm still waiting. 

nobody knows..

see the title? nobody knows by tony rich project! haha! dunno y but was listening to the song thru out the day. kinda cool but sentimental song. my cousin's off to the army today. wonder how he's gonna cope. its the 2nd day of the army life for my bro. i hope he's surviving.

played games today. totally bored. was fasting. hungry. thirsty. but patience is virtue, i broke my fast at 7.15pm today. nasi lemak for dinner. didn't eat alot cos was full half way thru the plate. life is getting very boring.

probably off to jogging tmrw. i need to start working out again. flabby. fat. wateva.

off to the nation..

well..its almost 3 mins since my bro n my parents left the house. they are sending off my bro to the army. i didn't tag along..feeling lazy n somehow very sad. my bro's only a year younger than me. n though we dun talk alot, we somehow understood wat each other's going thru. ever since young, i've been watching his back. now, its time for him to watch his own back. he's been thru shit. creating alot of problems for my family. got mixed wif the wrong company i presume. but we were always there for him. giving him chances n all. i reali hope that he would take his army days to change himself. i know if i had tag along to send him off, i would cry bcos the one year age gap..relates closely to me. i hope u change bro..all the best.

to my siblings, though i dun reali talk much..i do reali care abt u all.

a picture of my cousins all together!! 

my chubby lil bro!! 

my elder bro on the rite..wif my cousin on the left! 

jeng jeng jeng..

back from work juz now. today i was fasting. my dad told me of the new n auspicious month of the muslim calendar n that its good to fast on this particular month. n so i did. n so i went hungry. haha! well..it wasn't that bad. found out that i eat only a lil when i am reaaali hungry!

my bro's going to the army tmrw. my cousin the day after. to my bro n cousin, enjoy ur army days. i'll b joining u fellas at the end of the year.

damn..i'm missing masturah. trying hard not to contact her. i miss the gal wif the red shirt wearing jeans n reebok shoes. her, holding a can of Qoo drink..offering me a sip. so fond of those memories. ah well..

hehehe..

today was pretty much interesting. out wif my brothers to my auntie's place. mak long's house will always be the venue for any gatherings! invited by my auntie cos she was holding this small gathering to bid farewell to my bro n cousin who's gonna b going into the army soon. so to fir n my bro, enjoy ur army days! hahaha!

my auntie's pretty cool. reminds me so much of my late grandma. n i reali miss my late grandma. anyway, mak long cooked up some pretty delicious food today. we had satay, fried bee hoon n chicken wings! thanks mak long! luv ya!

my cousins went crazy today. haha! they were singing malay songs! karaoke! hahaha! my elder bro got 'psychoed' into singing a song! hahaha! idah n ina..u gals arr..siao! haha! but fun lah..i dun listen to malay songs..so i was off the hook!

i'll post the pics tmrw if i have the time..so enjoy.

yeaps..

as the words of this entry starts to flow, so are the beads of perspiration on my forehead. fever is getting into me. feeling rather heaty n totally weak. worst of all, i've got work later on. nvm, for the sake of money. haha! call me stupid or watsoever, i dun care. have to report early for work today, my 'mother' over there is sick. so there's no one to cover but me. yeah..everyone's depending on me over there. ah well..no pain, no gain.

my spine hurts. aftermath of an old rugby injury. the pain comes n go. my body's battered up. hopefully the army will shape me up. i miss my rugby days. scoring trys, tackling ppl, being tackled, smiling even though in pain but i reali miss my rugby mates. to my former rugby mates, i luv u ppl. thanks for getting one back for me, everytime when i get tackled. my bro n my cousin are going to report for army next week. there's a small farewell gathering tmrw at my auntie's house for the both them. still considering whether to go or not. brb to finish up this entry..

i'm juz tired..reali tired.

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back from work. everything was seems alrite. work was ok though i spent most of the time cutting n slicing up stuff. on my way home, i saw two guys bhaving rather strangely. pointing to a gal. i believe that gal is a gf of one of the guys. one of them kept saying something stupid but the gal kept ignoring. i tell u...the gal was hot. she was pretty n her g-string was showing!!! aiyoh..g-string in the open freaks me out!! aiyoh!! haha! ah well..spent an entire hour in the bus. tired now. damn tired.

fever..

down wif flu today. feeling very restless. heavy head..blocked nose. its official, i'm down wif flu. damn virus, rejoice while u can cos i'm gonna get better. mom was nice to me. she heard my constant sniffing n fetch me some panadols n a glass of water. swallowed 2 tablets n went back to sleep. love u mom.

woke up n played on my xbox. my older bro called me n asked abt some games. i think i should b a pro xbox gamer. haha! something's bugging. i think i'm missing someone. n i reali dun like that feeling. dun ask me who cos i dun know. or mayb, i DO know n juz being in a state of denial. oh well..

chapter 1..

a whole new day came abt. a sudden cough woke him up. as he glanced over to look at the clock, he was furiously groping ard for his specs. it was only 9 am. oh well, mayb i could i sleep a little longer...he thought. didn't take him long to fall asleep again. by the time he woke up, it was already 12 noon. aaaah..he said to himself. despite his late nite antics, he forced himself to wake up.

coffee was made immediately. surprisingly, he was beginning to depend on the beverage to wake up him up. brushed his teeth and armed wif a caffeine loaded drink in one hand, he switched on the tv. news..news..cartoons n cooking shows. after 20 mins of cartoons, he called for his bro n played on his dear xbox. his life was getting too bored.

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his day was draggy. the restless feeling n the runny nose seems all too familiar wif him. he was going to have a cold. chatted wif a couple of his frens online. the usual bunch. nahar sent him reggae song which was rather catchy. reggae . he was slowly getting into the reggae groove. he spent a few mins in the kitchen cooking up a storm. n now, he's back to his comp and online once again. he's missing a couple of ppl. mayb tonite's gonna b another long nite..

finally a cert!!

woke up early this morning despite of my late nite sleeping habits. no choice..today, i HAD to collect my cert! finally returned the book which i loaned a couple of months ago. surprisingly..there were no fines imposed. good! the librarian made a mistake in matching the book's number. i had to wait 20 mins for him to confirm. damn it. met up wif 3 frens of mine in dover. 2 of them were my former classmates in ite macpherson. had a good luff wif them. faizal n hamzah..u guys will always rock.

got my cert n went off to work. saw thomas aka 'ayam'. former rugby mates n school mate. better get in shape again ayam! fell asleep 3/4 of the journey..almost missed my stop. work work work. coffee..thank God..coffee.

gonna get into another format of writing my blog. always wanted to try being a writer. so starting tmrw, its gonna b a whole new blog format. zul's journey..written by zul. and so it begins..

happy bday singapore!

first n foremost, a big shout out to my country...SINGAPORE! Happy 39th Birthday Singapore!! though its public holiday today..i've still got to work. aaah..the life of an F & B slave. no public holidays valid. wish i could i c the fireworks on tv but working later on. gonna miss out on alot of shows. brb later to finish up this entry..

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yes lah! everything was okay juz now! work was so relaaaaaaaaaaaxing! not much ppl at all! i think most of them went to watch the national day parade. the trip to work was rather 'red' today. i believe there were hundreds of ppl, wearing red shirts, who took the same train as me!

the auntie next stall got into an argument wif another staff. the staff deserved it. she doesn't know how to control her stupid mouth. the poor auntie even cried at my store area. pitied the auntie. hell hath no fury like a woman scornth.

i'm working too hard. reminds me of masturah when i first met her. its starting to get into me. oh yah..this year's gonna b the last national day for Mr Goh Chok Tong as the Prime Minister. this goes out to the rather strict yet singaporean, mr goh chok tong. a tribute to him. ur a very respectable person, stern n firm yet funny n smiley when the time comes. no words can xpress the gratitude i have for u in turning this small nation into something that's rather worth looking in the world map. i will n always respect u. thank u mr goh.

smile guys...

something i did when i had the time. i think its nice.. 

wow...

oh..wat a day! i woke up on time for work but ended up getting to work late. how? due to some stupid updating of my atm, i can't used my atm card to top up my card. so, no card = no transport. hence, i had to spend 20 mins looking for an atm machine to withdraw money. damn.

work was rather ok. yes..juz an okay. nothing special though. my operations manager won the best manager award for the east side. congrats joan! she had this oldies song playing in her office this morning. it goes like 'dream..dream..dream!'. haha! guys, if u wanna juz sit ard n watch hot babes, go down to my place n hang out during lunch hour. woohoo!!

took the bus home today. as usual, ppl rushed when the bus came. typical kiasu singaporeans. i stayed at the back of the crowd. no need to rush. i was tired. all of a sudden, this foreign worker suddenly stopped in front of me n was frantically looking for his wallet. seems like a few ppl noticed that a team of pickpockets had struck. thank God, i was at the back of the crowd. see, it pays to b patient! gotta b careful from now on. thank u phoebe for replying to my nick! yes..i do need discounts for body shop products! ur such a sweetie! thank u soo much phoebe!! in case ur wondering, she used to b classmate of mine from ite macpherson. thank u again gal!

i noticed that some gals are damn materialistic. big busty ones go for guys wif da ride. the gorgeous ones go for guys wif da bling bling. i wonder..how long their relationships will last. till the end of time...or izzit the end of their possessions?

rotting...

woke up early today. 9am to be precise. haha! that's quite early for me. usually i sleep at 1am or 2am. having abit of a sneezing frenzy rite now. oh, the pain! anything but fever pls!

practically did 4 things today. eat, read, sleep n play on my xbox. i ain't got any life. yes..i know, like missy masturah said, "Go find one!'. thanks ya mas! almost finishing thru my novel now. going at an exceptionally fast rate! only 2 days n i'm 3/4 thru.

mr magoo is on tv now. funny but seen it a couple of times already. damn..i think i'm missing masturah abit. been along time since i last saw her. she said she's shy to meet me again. haiz! oh well..alot of things are going thru my mind rite now. probably can shake some of them off. enjoy!

bored..

i am bored. yes..a simple word to describe it all. BORED. my body's at home. i'm left to rot. i need something to spice things up. probably a galfren. but a gal brings more den spice to life. she'll bring chaos..anarchy and everything else! but the funny thing is..a gal can reali know how to make u smile.

bought a book yesterday. the king of torts by mr john grisham. damn..i love all his books. lawyers, paralegals, jurisdiction n the works. i should b a lawyer. was so engrossed wif the book that when i stopped, i was already half way thru the novel. damn..feel like i've wasted $10.

bought a new game today. baldur's gate: dark alliance 2. i'm into rpgs..but xbox doesn't offer alot of those. a good game..not the best but a good game nonetheless. heard someone whistling late last nite. scared the shit of me. something's not right..definitely spooky ard here...

waaaaat...

went back to school to collect my cert today. guess wat?? they held back my cert cos i didn't return a damn library book! fook! yeah..i know its part of my fault. but the least they could do is call me up n tell me to return the damn thing! i was so caught up wif my previous project dat i didn't have the time to give em back that day thing. damn..gotta go back next week to get my cert. ALONE! damn ite dover..

spent the afternoon hanging out wif a buddy of mine. joan!! a 25 yr old bugger who was my classmate. haha! we spent the afternoon in school talking to our former lecturer. to mr gremar, ur the greatest teacher a person can have! a great buddy too. all the best for the future class..though u openly told us that the class is struggling thus rendered hopeless! haha! probably getting a new xbox game tmrw..abit expensive here in singapore. thought of getting xbox live too..but need to share it amg my siblings.

till the next log true believers..

a new daaaaaaaaaaaaay..

woke up rather early today. dunno wats got into me. had a rather heavy breakfast. curry puffs and some noodles. haven't taken my shower yet...i think i'll go after this. dreamt of someone last nite..surprisingly. haven't dreamt of anyone for ages. coffee...glorious coffee. woke me up instantly. watching cartoons now..haha! a 20 yr old watching marvel cartoons!

for those ppl out there wif an xbox..i wanna meet u all. contact me..pls! haha! tony hawk underground rocks biggie time!

hullo mate!

back again after a long period away! finally completed my whole tertiary education. soon to join the army! now waiting for my enlistment notice. gonna lose quite a few kilos and suffer quite abit in there..but hey, no pain..no gain!

been rather busy for the past 2 months. work..motor..work..motor. getting abit fed up wif my bike practicals. probably losing interest. better not! had quite a tiring week..was working looooooong hours for the past 3 days. a total of 42 hours for 3 days. amazing stuff!

kinda miss a gal. someone i knew for quite sometime now. she's too shy to meet me again. dunno y. going crazy asking her y. maaaaaaan..its been soo long since i wrote an entry. trying to figure out how to put pictures in this blog for months!

working later on..but can't sleep yet. be back later on to write somemore!