no mood to write abt stuff. feeling rather sad. utterly sad. broken. yes. a more appropriate word. broken. juz like the song by amy lee n seether.
am booking in later on. dunno if miss kamil's gonna book in tonite or tmrw. personally, i dun find it a hassle staying in. even though there's nothing to do at nite, i can juz sit back n relax. dunno y kamil's going bonkers. ain't that bad anyway. borrowed a couple of books. terry brooks' mostly. so i can spend time reading the books at nite. should start praying again. life in bmt, didn't actuali provide much time to pray.
me n her. its not gonna work out. so i said my goodbyes n left. personally, its reali tearing me apart. but den again, i'm old enuff to go thru shit like this. hey, maturity lah dey. gimme time n i'll b ok. should concentrate more on training myself up. sum tings juz can't b forced rite? so carry on living n make the best of the time u have. i juz wanna wake up to each day n do everything properly, run that laps n pump those reps. so b4 i sleep each nite, i can tell myself that i've lived up to my expectations.
so buck up zul. run that 5km. pump those 20kg curls. dun stop till the pain from those trainings exceed the pain that love can give. to God, pride and honour. i promise i'll b freaking fit storeman. fark u medics who are reading this. hahaha. freaking druggers. injecting syringes into ur body. damn u. hahahaha. that silver is gonna b mine. trust me. its mine.
Sunday, June 19, 2005
Saturday, June 18, 2005
++ace of spade++
2 SIB. the 2nd singapore infantry brigade. or the ace brigade as they called. thats where i've been posted to. of all vocations, as a storeman.
an RQ who's a commando. a brigade commander who's a commando. n where all the storemen are small in size. storemen who could actually get gold for IPPT. amazing. i feel out of place down there. n so begins my training regime.
the first day of reporting. 0715 hours, kamil n i arrived at mandai hill camp. we changed our 11Bs for temp passes. abit of a hassle but we got it done. den we saw our huge the camp was. freaking massive. there are like 9 other units down there. the recce team, the signals bugger, the shooting contingent n few others. wtf. we are suppose to take care of the stores for all these ppl. haiz. not to mention to tend the armskote also! urgh!!
we got lost in the urban concrete maze. we ended up at the 6 DIV HQ. so we decided to ask a reliable looking old man. den i stood there open mouthed. not to ask but in shock. bcos kamil called the guy 'uncle'. ok ladies n gentlemen, that was a very big mistake. assumptions. especially in the army. juz bcos there's a guy wearing CV, doesn't mean he's a civilian. he could b a WO, MAJ or even a GEN. so the old man took a deep breath n showed us the way. while we were walking, i burst out laughing. n told kamil, that the old man is probably a warrant. n kamil freaked out. hahaha.
given a bunk n went of for orientation. apparently, there were alot of stores to b take care of. haiz. the places we need to know. how the procedure is like. n so on. boring. freaking boring. we did almost nothing over the next 4 days. haiz. the ppl over there dun teach u stuff. they are too nice to scold us. i'm not used to this kinda life. slacking life. 6 mths of shit bmt n i'm told to slack now. urgh. cannot. am reali looking forward to the exercises that these infantry hounds are gonna have. can't wait to see the cool weapons n stuff. haha.
ran 9.4km this week. was running 3.2km everyday. am trying to run 5km comfortably. hopefully by july or august i can make it. haha. am bringing weights in on sunday. when i'm bored, i can always pump iron. haha. but gonna spread out my training. cos the gym's available everyday. we'll see how. gonna b on protein shakes till my next pay. yeah, i'm gonna eat lunch n stuff..but lesser. hopefully can lose weight. need exercise mat n pants for booking out. other stuff too. haha. enjoy. life of an ace brigadier is pretty good when there's nothing to do but once the exercise begins, its helluva time. hahaha. lets get it on.
an RQ who's a commando. a brigade commander who's a commando. n where all the storemen are small in size. storemen who could actually get gold for IPPT. amazing. i feel out of place down there. n so begins my training regime.
the first day of reporting. 0715 hours, kamil n i arrived at mandai hill camp. we changed our 11Bs for temp passes. abit of a hassle but we got it done. den we saw our huge the camp was. freaking massive. there are like 9 other units down there. the recce team, the signals bugger, the shooting contingent n few others. wtf. we are suppose to take care of the stores for all these ppl. haiz. not to mention to tend the armskote also! urgh!!
we got lost in the urban concrete maze. we ended up at the 6 DIV HQ. so we decided to ask a reliable looking old man. den i stood there open mouthed. not to ask but in shock. bcos kamil called the guy 'uncle'. ok ladies n gentlemen, that was a very big mistake. assumptions. especially in the army. juz bcos there's a guy wearing CV, doesn't mean he's a civilian. he could b a WO, MAJ or even a GEN. so the old man took a deep breath n showed us the way. while we were walking, i burst out laughing. n told kamil, that the old man is probably a warrant. n kamil freaked out. hahaha.
given a bunk n went of for orientation. apparently, there were alot of stores to b take care of. haiz. the places we need to know. how the procedure is like. n so on. boring. freaking boring. we did almost nothing over the next 4 days. haiz. the ppl over there dun teach u stuff. they are too nice to scold us. i'm not used to this kinda life. slacking life. 6 mths of shit bmt n i'm told to slack now. urgh. cannot. am reali looking forward to the exercises that these infantry hounds are gonna have. can't wait to see the cool weapons n stuff. haha.
ran 9.4km this week. was running 3.2km everyday. am trying to run 5km comfortably. hopefully by july or august i can make it. haha. am bringing weights in on sunday. when i'm bored, i can always pump iron. haha. but gonna spread out my training. cos the gym's available everyday. we'll see how. gonna b on protein shakes till my next pay. yeah, i'm gonna eat lunch n stuff..but lesser. hopefully can lose weight. need exercise mat n pants for booking out. other stuff too. haha. enjoy. life of an ace brigadier is pretty good when there's nothing to do but once the exercise begins, its helluva time. hahaha. lets get it on.
Sunday, June 12, 2005
unsure for sure
damn damn unsure of wats gonna happen tmrw. freaking me out.
was packing my bags a couple of hours ago. lotsa stuff playing thru my mind. funny n stupid stuff. so many memories. maaaan, 6 months of bmt. we are the champs. no one can beat us. but tmrw, is a new begining for eagle 1. of medics n storemen. majority will b going to nee soon camp. whilst the rest of us will b scattered in different camps all ard singapore. eagle warriors, juz chill to wats gonna come our way. we are the sai kang kings. n no matter wat shit they throw at us, keep in mind that we've been there n done that.
as for me, i've always hated sai kang. tears flowing when i thought abt my future. everything's uncertain. its unsure for sure! for all u know, i'll turn to a fat fuck once again. n trust me, its reali scary. to know that u've lost 24kg n damn unsure if its gonna return again. and so, on this very day. the 12th of june 2006, i will make a promise to myself that if i dun reach 85kg at the end of this year. n if i dun meet that target at all, den i am nothing but a goddamn loser. this i can promise u. cos trust me baby, its hard for me to break promises.
oh yah, mas, if ur reading this, our promise ends in abt 18 more months. its been 6 months since we made the deal and u know that i'm gonna win. that's for sure. u know it n i know it. hahaha. n i've been asking u out for god knows..how long..more den a year? n ur still busy. haha. damn, i'm dat patient! ah well..we'll c how it goes.
6 months. reasonable time. reasonable target. FAT FUCK NO MORE LAH!!! ccb..fuck fast food n all the shit. hahaha. baron's strongman challenge. here i come.
was packing my bags a couple of hours ago. lotsa stuff playing thru my mind. funny n stupid stuff. so many memories. maaaan, 6 months of bmt. we are the champs. no one can beat us. but tmrw, is a new begining for eagle 1. of medics n storemen. majority will b going to nee soon camp. whilst the rest of us will b scattered in different camps all ard singapore. eagle warriors, juz chill to wats gonna come our way. we are the sai kang kings. n no matter wat shit they throw at us, keep in mind that we've been there n done that.
as for me, i've always hated sai kang. tears flowing when i thought abt my future. everything's uncertain. its unsure for sure! for all u know, i'll turn to a fat fuck once again. n trust me, its reali scary. to know that u've lost 24kg n damn unsure if its gonna return again. and so, on this very day. the 12th of june 2006, i will make a promise to myself that if i dun reach 85kg at the end of this year. n if i dun meet that target at all, den i am nothing but a goddamn loser. this i can promise u. cos trust me baby, its hard for me to break promises.
oh yah, mas, if ur reading this, our promise ends in abt 18 more months. its been 6 months since we made the deal and u know that i'm gonna win. that's for sure. u know it n i know it. hahaha. n i've been asking u out for god knows..how long..more den a year? n ur still busy. haha. damn, i'm dat patient! ah well..we'll c how it goes.
6 months. reasonable time. reasonable target. FAT FUCK NO MORE LAH!!! ccb..fuck fast food n all the shit. hahaha. baron's strongman challenge. here i come.
||store galore||
tmrw i will b going to my new vocation. as a storeman. yes. it sucks knowing that ur gonna b a storeman. but as in the words of my fren, pvt adnan, its hatred we have to love. haha.
posted to mandai hill camp. 1st SIB. lotsa outfield. guess i'll b dining out wif my fella storemen and eating rations all the way. BURP! ok..delicacies aside. the things i gotta do? i'm under General Equipment. meaning, i have to handle everything. from jerry cans to counting ration packs. but no worries, wif the help of the infantry dogs, i'll probably get things done in a jiffy. hey, INFANTRY leh. haha.
kinda missing my platoon mates. yes bros, we'll meet up regularly and complain how much we hate our vocations. haha! eagle 1. of medics n storemen.
24 hours away. soon to recce my future camp. need to know how to get here. haha! quite near lah. hope its not of too much trouble.
wah liao..masturah. miss u lah.
posted to mandai hill camp. 1st SIB. lotsa outfield. guess i'll b dining out wif my fella storemen and eating rations all the way. BURP! ok..delicacies aside. the things i gotta do? i'm under General Equipment. meaning, i have to handle everything. from jerry cans to counting ration packs. but no worries, wif the help of the infantry dogs, i'll probably get things done in a jiffy. hey, INFANTRY leh. haha.
kinda missing my platoon mates. yes bros, we'll meet up regularly and complain how much we hate our vocations. haha! eagle 1. of medics n storemen.
24 hours away. soon to recce my future camp. need to know how to get here. haha! quite near lah. hope its not of too much trouble.
wah liao..masturah. miss u lah.
Tuesday, June 07, 2005
loading...
had a great bbq down at east coast yesterday. met up wif few of my platoon mates. eagle 1. the ones that can click actuali. haha. chic wings, sausages, crabsticks, noodle and titbits. great food, great ppl and great place. fantastic RnR.
eating alot these few days. loading phase lah. hahaha! been few months since i had these kinda things. i haven't tasted chocs for almost 2 months till last nite! haha! ice cream? god knows how long it has been! too much free time lah. plus somehow..time seems to b flying by too quickly. reading again. terry brooks! haha! i luv fantasy, magical and such stuff. haha!
met up wif my old sec sch frens on sunday. azura, hilmi, nahar n barry!! maaaaan..its been a loooog time!!! azura came down wif kay. cool bugger anyway. hahaha! enjoy arr bro, ORD liao. not like us. damn government dogs. haha! missed those times in sec sch. yeah..like wat my sis said, we've grown up but still the same ol' buggers. the bond is still strong even after all these years. talked cock. hahaha! great way to relax lah. oh yah sis, doing my part lah eh..so STOP FREAKING SMOKING!!!! haha..like female dragon sia! hahahaha! stop it, hop onto the fitness bandwagon wif me. hahaha! missin' ya sis...
she's in KL. wah liao..missin' her like mad. hahaha! i wish she would juz b mine. i'll take care of her good. haiz. i wish she wouldn't b soooo stubborn!! ahaha! hey mas, if ur reading this, smile leh!! i like u alot leh! ya ya..i know i siao cos i'm saying this online. but if i say it rite in front of u, i think u'll blushed leh..hahah! or at most u'll b quiet n call me siao again. yes ppl..she loves calling me siao. hahaha! dunno y..but then again, she's also a crazy gal. hahaha! i think she likes me..hahahahaha!
no more loading phase. time to get back on the tracks. trying to go for a 10km run. non stop that is. hope to lose alot more. God pls dun let me be lazy. i wanna get a smaller waist. hahaha! loving my upper body though. thank u God. lets go.
eating alot these few days. loading phase lah. hahaha! been few months since i had these kinda things. i haven't tasted chocs for almost 2 months till last nite! haha! ice cream? god knows how long it has been! too much free time lah. plus somehow..time seems to b flying by too quickly. reading again. terry brooks! haha! i luv fantasy, magical and such stuff. haha!
met up wif my old sec sch frens on sunday. azura, hilmi, nahar n barry!! maaaaan..its been a loooog time!!! azura came down wif kay. cool bugger anyway. hahaha! enjoy arr bro, ORD liao. not like us. damn government dogs. haha! missed those times in sec sch. yeah..like wat my sis said, we've grown up but still the same ol' buggers. the bond is still strong even after all these years. talked cock. hahaha! great way to relax lah. oh yah sis, doing my part lah eh..so STOP FREAKING SMOKING!!!! haha..like female dragon sia! hahahaha! stop it, hop onto the fitness bandwagon wif me. hahaha! missin' ya sis...
she's in KL. wah liao..missin' her like mad. hahaha! i wish she would juz b mine. i'll take care of her good. haiz. i wish she wouldn't b soooo stubborn!! ahaha! hey mas, if ur reading this, smile leh!! i like u alot leh! ya ya..i know i siao cos i'm saying this online. but if i say it rite in front of u, i think u'll blushed leh..hahah! or at most u'll b quiet n call me siao again. yes ppl..she loves calling me siao. hahaha! dunno y..but then again, she's also a crazy gal. hahaha! i think she likes me..hahahahaha!
no more loading phase. time to get back on the tracks. trying to go for a 10km run. non stop that is. hope to lose alot more. God pls dun let me be lazy. i wanna get a smaller waist. hahaha! loving my upper body though. thank u God. lets go.
Thursday, June 02, 2005
**private moments**
its been 6 months. pure hell. pure fun. simply precious moments. unforgettable stuff.
i've passed out from tekong. finally. but somehow, i ain't feeling happy. for the only person who was there through out the whole training phase, i guess i should b. its like being thrown into a room, wif 11 other ppl for 6 months. den pushing them to their physical limit. suddenly after 6 months, u separate them and throw them different vocations. yes, i feel happy. more of the relieve side. somehow, the uncertainties are there. where will b? will i b able to cope? to carry out the tasks? who are my new frens? where are my section mates whom i've been wif for 6 months? so many questions, nobody to answer.
to my section mates, i know i'm gonna miss u guys. though there are some lazy maggots, i guess i'm still gonna miss u ppl. when i first came in, i looked around. i have zero confidence in you ppl. the way u ppl act and stuff. couldn't believe it that some of u ppl are actuali in the army. dunno if u ppl can cope wif the trainings. den as the days go by, u guys have proven to me that section 1 will always live up to its reputation. the fittest among the unfittest. yes, even when we are short of men, we make sure we get the job done. a tribute to my section. i'm proud of u guys.
to recruit sharif, i consider u to b my best section mate. we've seen each other break. i've seen u breaking ur own damn limit. proudest of u. think back bro, 10 years down the road, u'll remember u've done the 16km route march even though ur about to fall. i take my hats off to u. u would juz keep quiet and do it. i know u would b complaining in ur heart but the way u do it, is truly amazing. if there was a best section mate award, u'll win it bro. hands down. i wish u all the best for ur future vocation n do keep in touch.
recruit manee, bed 1 of section 1. though i've beaten u upteem times in combat shit, i still look up on u whenever it comes to running and endurance shit. ur part of team black magic and seriously, ur team is truly magical. u've shown me that fat bastards can reali run. n have done my section proud. yes, at times we dun respect u as section ic. but trust me, most of the times we reali do appreciate wat u've done. do call me up sometimes, we can hang out together bro.
rec msw, the kid of platoon 1. i hope ur growing through out ur experience in NS. i respect u, cos u went thru NS without the support of ur family. wif ur family in Brunei n u in Singapore alone, its reali amazing how u did it. so young yet i think ur quite capable. sometimes, ppl do make mistakes and its not wrong to admit. learn not to win in every situation. sorry cos u've got one of the worse buddy. i hope i've done my part as the 'other' buddy to help u ease the jobs that u have. look up kid and show the world wat u can reali do.
to tan seng sim, the loud mouth of platoon 1. never met a guy so talkative n able to carry 'balls' like u. ur funny, witty n fast thinking. at times u make fun of situations at the wrng time. its best to shut up sometimes. thank u for being there wif me when we chiong. making my time in tekong fun. i extend my hand as brother to u. i know ur gonna miss us and we are gonna miss u big time.
to rec soffri, my cambodian bro. its sad to see u break apart when u get ur status. chiongsters dun care abt that. we chiong cos we want to. not cos of sum status. believe in urself and not the army system. its nice to get to know u better bro. though we went to the same school b4, its better to know u in camp. the days when we chiong together, when we were an unbeatable pair were truly unforgettable. u motivated me and pushed me on. for that i thank u. i hope i've done my part as well. i know when i grow old n have kids, i will b able to c them enlisting too. n when they are in camp, i'll b proud to tell them about u. taking u as an example of my best platoon mate, my bro and my fren. i know i'm gonna miss ya, keep in touch bro.
yes, i am crying when i'm typin this. 6 months of no status. its tiring. very very tiring. the pain i've endured. i'll b proud to tell ppl i went thru ALL the shit. i was there for every single training. for every single punishments. for every single proudest moments of my life. i've amazed my own self. never thought i could do it. i thank God for giving me the health to carry on every single time. chiongster. garang. FS. fit. crazy. 50 cents. dats wat they are calling me.
i am unsure of the future but i do know that i'm missing my section n platoon already. my sergeants n all. wat is this feeling that i have? for its making tears flowing down my cheeks...
i've passed out from tekong. finally. but somehow, i ain't feeling happy. for the only person who was there through out the whole training phase, i guess i should b. its like being thrown into a room, wif 11 other ppl for 6 months. den pushing them to their physical limit. suddenly after 6 months, u separate them and throw them different vocations. yes, i feel happy. more of the relieve side. somehow, the uncertainties are there. where will b? will i b able to cope? to carry out the tasks? who are my new frens? where are my section mates whom i've been wif for 6 months? so many questions, nobody to answer.
to my section mates, i know i'm gonna miss u guys. though there are some lazy maggots, i guess i'm still gonna miss u ppl. when i first came in, i looked around. i have zero confidence in you ppl. the way u ppl act and stuff. couldn't believe it that some of u ppl are actuali in the army. dunno if u ppl can cope wif the trainings. den as the days go by, u guys have proven to me that section 1 will always live up to its reputation. the fittest among the unfittest. yes, even when we are short of men, we make sure we get the job done. a tribute to my section. i'm proud of u guys.
to recruit sharif, i consider u to b my best section mate. we've seen each other break. i've seen u breaking ur own damn limit. proudest of u. think back bro, 10 years down the road, u'll remember u've done the 16km route march even though ur about to fall. i take my hats off to u. u would juz keep quiet and do it. i know u would b complaining in ur heart but the way u do it, is truly amazing. if there was a best section mate award, u'll win it bro. hands down. i wish u all the best for ur future vocation n do keep in touch.
recruit manee, bed 1 of section 1. though i've beaten u upteem times in combat shit, i still look up on u whenever it comes to running and endurance shit. ur part of team black magic and seriously, ur team is truly magical. u've shown me that fat bastards can reali run. n have done my section proud. yes, at times we dun respect u as section ic. but trust me, most of the times we reali do appreciate wat u've done. do call me up sometimes, we can hang out together bro.
rec msw, the kid of platoon 1. i hope ur growing through out ur experience in NS. i respect u, cos u went thru NS without the support of ur family. wif ur family in Brunei n u in Singapore alone, its reali amazing how u did it. so young yet i think ur quite capable. sometimes, ppl do make mistakes and its not wrong to admit. learn not to win in every situation. sorry cos u've got one of the worse buddy. i hope i've done my part as the 'other' buddy to help u ease the jobs that u have. look up kid and show the world wat u can reali do.
to tan seng sim, the loud mouth of platoon 1. never met a guy so talkative n able to carry 'balls' like u. ur funny, witty n fast thinking. at times u make fun of situations at the wrng time. its best to shut up sometimes. thank u for being there wif me when we chiong. making my time in tekong fun. i extend my hand as brother to u. i know ur gonna miss us and we are gonna miss u big time.
to rec soffri, my cambodian bro. its sad to see u break apart when u get ur status. chiongsters dun care abt that. we chiong cos we want to. not cos of sum status. believe in urself and not the army system. its nice to get to know u better bro. though we went to the same school b4, its better to know u in camp. the days when we chiong together, when we were an unbeatable pair were truly unforgettable. u motivated me and pushed me on. for that i thank u. i hope i've done my part as well. i know when i grow old n have kids, i will b able to c them enlisting too. n when they are in camp, i'll b proud to tell them about u. taking u as an example of my best platoon mate, my bro and my fren. i know i'm gonna miss ya, keep in touch bro.
yes, i am crying when i'm typin this. 6 months of no status. its tiring. very very tiring. the pain i've endured. i'll b proud to tell ppl i went thru ALL the shit. i was there for every single training. for every single punishments. for every single proudest moments of my life. i've amazed my own self. never thought i could do it. i thank God for giving me the health to carry on every single time. chiongster. garang. FS. fit. crazy. 50 cents. dats wat they are calling me.
i am unsure of the future but i do know that i'm missing my section n platoon already. my sergeants n all. wat is this feeling that i have? for its making tears flowing down my cheeks...
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